what's next?

So... tomorrow came and went. Nothing happened. Not even a phone call. Great. No follow up to the I-need-to-talk talk. What should I do? Send a text message and be ignored? Make a phone call and feel like a fool? I think I will let my pride win this time around. My heart will just have to wait it out and suffer a little bit more.

the dreaded goodbye

So it has finally come to this. "I need to talk" often translates as i need some space...from you. And I cannot believe that after years and years and years of relationships with men I still don't learn a thing. Not even to separate my heart and my brain. I somehow always manage to mix the two up and end up being hurt. The one thing that I've realized happening is that the older get, the harder I fall. Everyone knows that age does not equal wisdom. And in my case this is so true. Even after uncountable heartbreaks I'm still none the wiser. And as I've stated, I even fall harder, more intensely and with more passion. Gone were the days of fun infatuations and light crushes. Now, it's either a one night stand or a winding love affair. The latter almost always wins. It seems like I just don't bother with light crushes any more. I'll whiz on straight to the big L. Even though all those years of being in and witnessing failed relationships have helped to form the pessimist side of me, I still jump head first in to that blackhole called love. Yeah..yeah.. I know nothing lasts forever and sure, I've broken my fair share of hearts, but when it comes to my own I still always find that it hurts. Whether it's the heart or the ego. They both suffer. Now I am gearing myself up for the dreaded goodbye talk tomorrow. Jeez! I can't believe I'm being dumped again!